A Voice In My Head

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I am one of those people ‘blessed’ with hearing a voice. I’m so used to it by now, that sometimes I don’t even listen to it, usually when I really should. Those are the times when I think back: “You should have listened. There would have been much less pain on your part.”

Sometimes I don’t hear it because I am too busy thinking and trying to figure things out on my own. Sometimes I don’t believe it: the things I hear are quite unbelievable, until they manifest in the ‘real’ world. Sometimes I pretend not to hear, because I place the blame on It, instead of me, and sometimes I’m too pissed off at everything, that I just don’t care.

I mean, what do you do when you’re in middle of a really delicious dinner and the voice sais: “Do…., I know it sounds impossible, but you can do it…”? Really, I mean really! Here I am, enjoying my delicious dinner and the Higher Power wishes to talk?! Not just talk, but talk about this grand assignment It would like me to embark upon.

I really love Its humor. Maybe you don’t find it humorous, I do.

“Why me?”, I ask.

“Why not!”, it answers.

“Because, it’s a big thing and no one has managed to pull it off yet, why should I?”

“Because you have Me by your side, because you understand the nature of reality and are usually determined and crazy enough. I know you Dear One. You are Me.”

“Why do you always tell me what to do, but never how?”, I tried to argue further.

“For the experience of it. That is what you are here for. If I told you how to do it, it wouldn’t become your wisdom. It would remain Mine.”

Ok, what do I say to that? I guess I am going to have to try to do it. Just out of curiosity, I asked: “Dear Higher Self, why are you telling me this in the middle of my dinner?”

“Dear One, I had the dinner through you as well. It was delicious and after that one glass of wine, I thought it was a perfect moment to discuss our plans for your future. You have been asking me a lot lately…”

Yes, I have. Guilty as charged. What do I know about the right place and the right time? Judging from the things I did on my own when I knew best – not much. I guess I will have to roll up my sleeves and get to work. Luckily, It never puts a time frame on anything, so I’m good for today and tomorrow is another day…

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